My name is Khan Rizwan Ghias. I am a student of Chartered Accountancy , and very soon I shall turn 23 (this August to be very exact:). I live in Lahore , Pakistan. My name Rizwan was in fact chosen by my late grandmother , and it stands for "Blithes, Happiness, God's consent, Agreement, Joy.....etc." Rizwan is also the name of an Angel. My complete name stands for " a person who listens to the woes and yearns of people , and helps them , and thereby lives happily."
I do get irritated and angry, but then I try to stand up to my name most of the time :)
I am the eldest of three brothers-- the younger ones being Omer and Waqas. Sometimes we guys have big fights, but then after some time we forget it all like nothing ever happened. I had another brother, Awais, but he died at a very tender age. I have always always always wanted to have a real sister , and for that I literally used to cry and complain to God.
Being extremely lonely in my childhood, I got self-possessed and then got attracted to Nature. Since long "Trees" have become my passion and I think they are the biggest ever benefactors to the human race -- they have done for mankind what just can not be returned -- they burn themselves up under the angry sun, but provide us with cool shadows and comfort us without asking for any return. Due to zillions of such reasons , I made my hobby as "planting trees" , and I virtually feel something die inside me when I see any one of my plantations not managing it through.
From my father's side I am a Lodhi, and from mother's side, a Mughal. Belonging to an upper-middleclass family, I grew up in an atmosphere where there was joint-family system. For twentyone years I lived in a very big house that had many mango and other fruit trees, and big lawns and rooms. For twelve years I studied in one of the leading schools in Lahore , Beaconhouse Public School , but I was never one of the top students, although my average is the seventh postion.
My mother, Naeema Ghias, tried to keep me on the religious side and she succeeded in it. On the whole I belong to a family which is somehow a bit religious. Anyway, the role of my mother in my life has made me whatever I am today. I can talk and discuss things with her like no two mother and daughter can. As for my father, Ghias Kahlid Khan, he has simply devoted his life in trying to provide us with the best of everything that he can. I feel proud of my father and I love him very much. Somone once asked me whom I love more , my mother or my father. So I simply told him, "I am a building. If you look at my structure you are actually looking at my father. As for my mom, she is my foundation." As I am growing older , I feel I need my parents more than ever. Sometimes I feel as if my entire life and soul are my parents. I am, nothing without them. Nothing !
I have a craze for mountains and I love to travel , but my profession does not allow me to travel. Anyway I feel great to think about becoming a Chartered Accountant, although I just came into this field accidently. I have always wanted to become a Jet fighter Pilot, but I guess its no use thinking of it now as I have been rejected twice by the people at the Air force. However I want to do paratrooping , because I love adventures.
My relations with God are pretty funny. He is the one I fight with , and He is the one I say all my heartfelt complaints and desires to. There have been many times when I have blamed Him for being harsh and cruel, but then He made me say from my own mouth that it was I who was at fault. I have virtually felt those moments when I knew that God was behind all those matters which are out of reach of man. Although I am not a good Muslim, but I have very strong faith in "Duaa" (prays) and "Darood" (Holy words for our Last Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him)). I had recited the Holy Quran at the age of seven, and in school I always used to stand first and get prizes in Islamic Studies.
I very strongly believe in dreams. Although I am a virgo, I don't believe in that stuff, as I take it as an incomplete science. My sixth sense is good but I attend to it pretty late. I am mostly serious, so in order to keep the seriousness away, I try to become careless and have fun my own way. I listen to music , watch movies , sometimes like to dance too, and like to window shop. Being close to my mother I have very carefully observed the opposite sex. Sometimes I feel I think more like a woman than a man..hehehe.. but then I am thankful to God that he made me a man , because being a woman is something that only women can handle..far funny and different , mysterious and strange than what us men can deem or understand.
I do not read books. These days I am hooked to the Internet, and I many times feel it unjustified for my plants. Throughout my life I have never had a real friend ( I thought I had one, but he deceived me and left me in the middle of nowhere). For me, the definition of a true friend is of that whom you don't have to talk to through lips, but just looking at him/her can deliver the message. I try to be simple, and so I understand simple and straight things because I say whatever is inside me...I just can not hide my feelings.
Well.. for now I can not think of anything else, so maybe some other time I'll add more things about myself.
I do need guidance from you guys if you feel I am wrong about any view. I firmly believe that we learn throughout our lives, not only from our elders, but from youngsters too. Lastly I would just like to say two things :
Hearts never lie, because God lives in hearts
You are a tree ! And you must grow tall and strong. And strengthen your land !
May go bless you all :)
khanriz@hotmail.com
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